Three people holding hands above the table

Lord Give Me A Sign

I'm struggling with depression and thoughts of suicide. I have struggled with this my whole life basically. 30 years of depression and anxiety. I often welcomed the thought of death. At least I would not have to deal with the pain. I have mental illnesses, an overwhelming amount of body pain.
My marriage is struggling. I don't know what to do.
I'm also a father of three little girls.
They need me. But I am getting tired of being
here. I don't feel like a have any good options. I don't like my job.